10 years.

i can't believe we've made it this far.

i remember the time, when we were just youngins walkin down college ave., and i tried to hold your hand. you pulled your hand away. turd head.


i remember the time, when you were drunk in my apartment elevator and you called me "abbie". i wanted to kill you. big fat turd head.

i remember one day telling my mom, "i met a boy." and she smiled.


i remember taking you to meet the family at aunt rosie's wedding. we were all dancing and she grabbed your butt and shocked the hell out of you. from then on, i knew you were in.


i remember when we decided to move to alabama, 900 miles from everything and everyone we ever knew and we were excited. we were there for three days and i had to leave for three weeks for work. we didn't have a couch or a tv. but you survived.

i remember how i was folding laundry and packing up to drive home for christmas and you came out of the spare room, on your knees, and asked me to marry you.


i remember driving home staring at that gorgeous ring for hours--it was the same ring i had ripped out of a catalog as a teenager and pinned it to an inspiration board in my parents house. i never knew you took it and you made my dream come true.

i remember the day we were married and you sent me flowers at the hairdressers.
i cried and smiled and cried some more--and my friend nicole was mad because i had just had my makeup done.


in fact, i cried most of that day--until we got in the limo and kissed and then the party began.


i remember walking out at our reception together to "sweet home alabama." it was exhilarating.


i remember waking up the next morning, after our wedding, and seeing you with your ring on. that was a weird sight. you hate jewelry but then you called me "wifey" and all was right in the world.

i remember the day we lost our first baby. i was mush and you were a rock.
i remember the day i told you we were pregnant with josh. you didn't believe me!
i remember the day i told you we were pregnant with anna. you were so happy!
i remember the day i told you we were pregnant with ben. you were shocked! and so was i.


i remember the first night in the hospital after ben was born and we cried together. our happiness had turned to sadness and disbelief. but you got it all out. in one night, you got it all out. i was so amazed by you.

and you continue to amaze me. every day. sometimes you amaze me by leaving your socks on the floor next to your side of the bed, even after i've told you it annoys me every single day of my life.
but then i remember how my dad does that too and how much you are like him, just a little johnny tommy trollers (only my fam will get that joke).


i remember the way you whispered last night on the phone that you were so sad you couldn't be here with me on our anniversary. i am so sad too. i miss you. you sound so far away.

but you will be here tomorrow.
and then...oh man. then, we will eat our kentucky fried chicken and celebrate like rock stars!

i love you john. happy anniversary babe.
wanna go another 10? sounds good to me.