being a mom.

i watched this commercial the other day, my eyes completely fixated on the television screen.
i just sat there frozen.

afterwards, i balled like a baby.
like i couldn't stop crying.
at all.

sometimes being a mom is the hardest thing i've ever attempted.
i mess up, i scream, i make bad decisions, i say things that i never wanted to come out of my mouth.
and then i repeat it all over again.

but then there are those moments when things seem to be...like pure magic.

when the kids are happy and giggly and we dance around the kitchen or lay on the sofa in a big pile together and things just seem to be the way they always were meant to be.

there are those days when it all seems like it is going by so fast.
how in the world is ben five years old?
when did anna's feet get so damn big?
how is it that josh is going into fifth grade?

and it hits me.
like this commercial hits me.
and i just lose it.

being a mom is the hardest job in the world. but it's also the best.