grab my phone and quickly check my email.
my heart jumps in my chest--i have an email from jaime.
she met isaac.
he's snuggly and sweet.
pictures are on facebook.
tears are instantly in my eyes.
i rush to the bus stop.
we're a little bit early so i grab my phone again.
this time i pull up facebook and quickly type in jaime's name.
there they are.
pictures and a video!
i show anna and she says "awwwww! he's so cute!"
the bus is here so i put my phone away.
i pray out loud on the way to work , thanking God over and over again.
i make it to work and practically skip into the building.
i log into my computer as fast as i can, quickly open my browser and login to fb.
then i catch my breath.
or maybe i'm holding it.
a picture of jaime holding her son stares back at me and i'm mesmorized.
he's real, no longer a photograph, no--he's real alright, and hanging onto his mommy like she's always been there.
he seems small to me and very pale and i can't help but wonder what kind of care he's been getting.
i can't fathom the thought that they will not be bringing him home this time.
they have to leave him there.
i quickly push that away, focusing instead on the beauty of the moment.
there is so much beauty.
a little boy met his mother and father today.
i can't explain to you my happiness looking at this photograph and reading jaime's emails.
i wonder if this is a little bit of what heaven feels like, where everything feels blanketed by love and even the breeze sings a love song.
redemption is a beautiful love song.