back to the grind.

it was so tough to get up this morning.
my body is not used to 5:30 a.m.
it was a mad scramble out the door and even then i forgot my purse.
when i was finally on my way, i felt rushed, tired and miserable.
turning out of my development and joining the traffic, i realized i wasn't the only one thrown back into real life today.
i drove along, listening to the news and decided to turn the radio button so that a cd would play.
mumford & sons happened to be playing.
food for this tired soul.

i drove along, the cars moving at a good pace, the sun coming up over the hills.
as i reached the crescendo during "roll away your stone", the sun filled the entire sky and i promise you i felt a warm calm rush over me.
it was comforting and reassuring.
and i felt like crying.

it seems that all my bridges have been burnt
but you say that's exactly how this grace thing works
it's not the long walk home that will change this heart
but the welcome i received with the restart

it's a new year.
i am not quite ready but it's here nonetheless.
i am making some resolutions, little hopes and promises for myself.
i am ready to lean on Him and become all that He wants me to be.
i am ready.