prayers for our boys.

my mind is filled to the tippy top.
there is absolutely no more room in there.
i am anxious and scared, worried and lost.
but i have a big God.
He will not leave my side.
He has gone before me and tells me to trust in Him.
and i'm trying, begging, to keep my faith in Him.

things with the adoption are...hard.
i can't talk specifics, but there is a chance that davis may not be able to be our child.
just writing that sentence makes me want to throw up.
there's always a chance, with every adoption, but this chance seems more real than ever.
i need clarity.
i need focus.
i need to regain some of the strength that i had in the beginning of this process.
oh Father, please hear my prayer!

i have known all along that davis would be deemed unworthy.
but i never dared to dream he would be deemed worthLESS!
please, if you can, say a prayer for sweet davis, that he will be given a chance, that circumstances may change, that his heart is not closed off and detached forever, that his health is good, that God knows his deepest desires and they are to have a family.

there are several families in the same boat as me...
we are all being told that our children are "unadoptable."
not because they aren't able to be adopted but because they feel that they wouldn't add any value to a family.
"heavily medicated"
"severe issues"
"a huge risk"
these are the words being passed on to us, along with much urging to rethink our hearts.

"take the emotion out of the situation and think clearly."
umm...really?
when is that ever easy for a MOTHER?

please pray for these children.
please pray for these coordinators, for the agencies, for the caregivers, for the judge.
please pray that their hearts will break for our children as much and as deeply as it breaks ours.
three little mommas, all heartbroken and empty, shoulders back and chin up, moving forward only by the Strength of our Lord.
please pray for the children.

EVERY CHILD DESERVES THE LOVE OF A FAMILY.
EVERY CHILD.

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today's daily devotional from the book jesus calling:

WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT. As you take steps of faith, depending on Me, I will show you how much I can do for you. If you live your life too safely, you will never know the thrill of seeing Me work through you. When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength. That's why it is so wrong to measure your energy level against the challenges ahead of you. The issue is not your strength but Mine, which is limitless. By walking close to Me, you can accomplish My purposes in My strength.