Sunday, March 11, 2012

prayers for our boys.

my mind is filled to the tippy top.
there is absolutely no more room in there.
i am anxious and scared, worried and lost.
but i have a big God.
He will not leave my side.
He has gone before me and tells me to trust in Him.
and i'm trying, begging, to keep my faith in Him.

things with the adoption are...hard.
i can't talk specifics, but there is a chance that davis may not be able to be our child.
just writing that sentence makes me want to throw up.
there's always a chance, with every adoption, but this chance seems more real than ever.
i need clarity.
i need focus.
i need to regain some of the strength that i had in the beginning of this process.
oh Father, please hear my prayer!

i have known all along that davis would be deemed unworthy.
but i never dared to dream he would be deemed worthLESS!
please, if you can, say a prayer for sweet davis, that he will be given a chance, that circumstances may change, that his heart is not closed off and detached forever, that his health is good, that God knows his deepest desires and they are to have a family.

there are several families in the same boat as me...
we are all being told that our children are "unadoptable."
not because they aren't able to be adopted but because they feel that they wouldn't add any value to a family.
"heavily medicated"
"severe issues"
"a huge risk"
these are the words being passed on to us, along with much urging to rethink our hearts.

"take the emotion out of the situation and think clearly."
when is that ever easy for a MOTHER?

please pray for these children.
please pray for these coordinators, for the agencies, for the caregivers, for the judge.
please pray that their hearts will break for our children as much and as deeply as it breaks ours.
three little mommas, all heartbroken and empty, shoulders back and chin up, moving forward only by the Strength of our Lord.
please pray for the children.



today's daily devotional from the book jesus calling:

WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT. As you take steps of faith, depending on Me, I will show you how much I can do for you. If you live your life too safely, you will never know the thrill of seeing Me work through you. When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength. That's why it is so wrong to measure your energy level against the challenges ahead of you. The issue is not your strength but Mine, which is limitless. By walking close to Me, you can accomplish My purposes in My strength.


Tara said...

Oh, Amy. My heart launched into my throat when I read those words. Praying hard for you and for Davis and the others. Please, God...

meg duerksen said...

praying for you all.

Kimberly said...

Praying for those sweet boys & for your family (& the others) that all will be well in Jesus name :)

J said...

EVERY child.
beautiful post. You are a courageous woman and I love you!

ckbrylliant said...

Praying for your family and for Davis. God will hear you. If any can, God Can!

jeana said...

this is absolutely heart breaking. keeping you all in my prayers.

The Lord watches over all who love Him. Psalm 145:20

The peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your heart and mind. Philippians 4:7

Megan said...

This makes my stomach sick. No child should be deemed unadoptable. Praying praying praying.

legally mommy said...

Good thing our God can move mountains! Praying for that!

amy lynn said...

Amy! You won't remember me but I fell in love with your booth at the Madison Fall Festival, but I fell more in love with your story. I've been following your blog ever since meeting you and your crafty goodness...only to fall in love with the story of this adoption roller coaster. Oddly enough, you've been on my heart lately. Perhaps it's the Father drawing His people together to pray for sweet Davis. So count me and my hubs in! We will be praying for you and yours (including little Davis). Hang in there.
- Amy

Laura Lee said...

praying now. Our God is able.

Anonymous said...

Right in the middle of reading this I bowed my head in prayer. I felt my heart break for all of you. In Jesus name I pray.

Amy James

Dee D said...

I've never commented before, but I needed you to know that I am praying for Davis, for you & your family, for the other boys & families...that the Lord do great & mighty things for you all, as only HE can.

Gooches said...

God loves you and sweet Davis. He knows. My prayer and hope is that you will feel the tangible prayers in behalf of your family. My son, when he was 7, was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. The prognosis was not good. Next month (2.5 yrs later) he will reach his 1 year mark, cancer free, because of God's mercy, because of the faith and prayers of many. So much love to your family.

Christine said...

How can a child be deemed unadoptable? That is something I cannot even fathom. With tears streaming down my face, sitting at my desk at work, I pray for you and for sweet Davis. I pray for the other children and those families. I pray that God will work in the hearts of the people making these decisions. Just remember that God has a plan for sweet Davis. Hang on to that, hang on to faith. I pray that God wraps sweet Davis up in his arms and allows Davis to feel love and compassion.

Lasso the Moon said...

Crying with you. Praying for you.
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